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Girls Named M

Trying to piece together my history of love. The simplicity of innocence to the complication of sex. How love, sex, and relationships don't always coinicide. The war and loss. Lastly my fall from grace, and my journey to find it again.

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

Mollie PART ONE

She was one of those situational relationships. My friend at the time was her brother Norman, and their father was friends with my own.

Once again, I never kissed her.

Anything we did was pretty much as a group. My mother would drive us all to the movies or other places.

However, my adolescence was ending. I was discovering a more physical attraction to women (puberty) and learning about the female anatomy (porn) and the birds and the bees (more porn).

Someone else came along, someone who I at the time saw more potential in. I really did care for Mollie at the time, and didn't want to corrupt her, as I was looking to be. I remember the phone call when she found out that was beginning to talk to who would become my next girlfriend...

Mollie: You don't want to be my boyfriend anymore?

John: I'm sorry... (pause)

Mollie: Meanie... CLICK


That, as they say... was that. We wouldn't talk for a very long time... and perhaps in a way that conversation would shape future events.
posted by deaDpixeL  # 11:28 PM
Nellie

This one was put together by our respective parents. It consisted of one date - going to the local dairy queen. Fun stuff!

I remember thinking she was so pretty... However it wasn't to be as I for the first time experienced disappointment. She had her sister tell me she wasn't interested.
posted by deaDpixeL  # 11:23 PM
Renee

My first interest in the opposite sex was a girl named Renee... Who lived exactly 3 houses down. While she had always been there before, my interests were mainly my big wheel, star wars, and gi joes. The blur of childish things came clear, and she was there.

I was in 7th grade, and she was in 5th grade. Funny how even at that point there was the concern over an age difference.

She was blonde, blue eyes... beautiful. (To this day she remains)

We never kissed. Not a once. It wasn't really about that, as it was kind of a taboo thing... a special thing. This was before I knew what sex or love even was.

I cannot recall what it is exactly that we did with our time. I mean, with all of the kids on the block spending all of their time together anyway... There wasn't a difference save for the fact that she was my girlfriend. I am not sure why we broke up... I don't even remember it to tell you the truth. Maybe I got grounded from her, or she from I.

To this day, on the few occasions that I get to see her, I remember my childhood on that block fondly.
posted by deaDpixeL  # 1:14 PM

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